Fantasy vs. My Reality
***WARNING!! Self-pity ahead!!!***
The One Year Anniversary of my split with the Ex quickly approaches, and in that time, I've gone on two, count 'em, TWO dates. And neither of those turned into anything worth pursuing further. I placed ads on both Yahoo! Personals and Match.com, emailed a few ice breakers to what seemed to be nice, down-to-earth guys, received a wink and responded back, but after two months, my inboxes remained empty. I'm active in the community, try as much as I can not to be a hermit by going out with friends to movies, to dinner, to plays, to Disneyland, have even started visiting some of the gay hang outs by myself. Everyone's either already coupled or not interested. I just don't seem to have the knack for dating.
But, at least I have my fantasy boyfriends. Always ready when I close my eyes to raise my spirits and to make me feel datable. They're handsome, rugged, square-jawed, hairy-chested, strong, muscled and waiting for me. They're willing to do anything I want, at a moment's notice, without hesitation, day or night (unless I'm at the office), no questions asked. They're always smiling, eager to please me and happy to take care of my every need. Gentle but with just the right amount of playfulness. They don't ask anything in return, never argue or disagree.
When I wake up, though, it's back to the real dating world.
sigh
God, I sound pathetic.
Maybe I should stand naked in front of the Boom Boom Room....
Image of Eric Evans from Bad Boys Pool Party
posted by Greg at 8:45 PM
6 Comments:
It's not easy. I know that. *hug*
BELIEVE ME!!!! I understand!
It will be a year in a few weeks for myself. I can relate -- I have tried the same things. Just try to keep in the back of your mind that someone will see all those great qualities you possess and the time invested in searching will pay off in the end.
I want pics!
it is tough, as others have already said. always find it baffling that good quality guys just don't get snapped up (guys like yourself, for e.g.)...
but am a firm believer in 'the right person at the right time', and am 100% sure that it's a Universal concept, so hang in there matey :)
by the way - hehhee, yeah, sorry about the 'more' thing... actually, no i'm not. it was wicked fun! and i kinda figured that the guy in the pick IS american... however, if i bump into him at the local 7/11, shall Fed-Ex him to you pronto ;)
hope Life is treating you kindly.
It took me almost a year an a hlaf to date after my break-up. Now I've bene with a great guy for 16 months. I know what you're going through- it'll all pan out in the end :-)
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